Hotdogs, Limitless school work, and the Friends theme song playing in the background.
Is my day in a nutshell.
I have this new zest for life I cannot explain.
I'm more energetic, more positive and more willing.
I feel great.
I have dreams that I no longer deem impossible to reach.
My heart itself, feels happier.
I've spent years of my life giving light to only the bad.
"I hate this..." "...why is it always like that?"
The bad isn't worth the time. It's not even worth the acknowledgement of being there.
Why be so sad? Mad? Angry? ...why?
We have one life, only one.
Some say life is too short, but life is the longest thing anybody can do.
When I'm turning back to say my final goodbye to this world,
I don't want to remember reasons why my jobs sucks,
situations that tore me apart,
or people who've hurt me.
That's not what my life is about, those don't define me.
I'm taking a good, hard long look in the mirror.
I've disappointed myself with the time I've wasted in resentment.
It's not a place to be so why keep myself there?
I have people that love me.
And to those people who don't? It's okay.
But hate will be a one way street. That's energy I can put toward something better.
I'm taking control of my life, and I'm not perfect, but I know everything will unfold beautifully.
Because its my life, and my life is great.

I Want A Blast From The Past

I haven't written on this thing in a while.
Things are changing dramatically, out of my hands.
I'm just flowing with the go here.
...
Baby, I Roll Up.
This song's been in my head playing over and over.
I don't know why, I just really like the song.
It puts me in a good mood.
I like the tune of it.

I keep thinking about highschool memories,
the GOOD ones.
If high school didn't have any drama, I'd go back.
Because I miss the family environment.
I miss being with people I've known long enough to trust.
I just miss all my friends I'd see on a daily basis.
I miss it so much.

Words Left Unspoken

It sucks when the one person, you have full faith in, lets you down in a time you swore they never would.
They put you second like they promised they wouldn't do again.
And leave you crying in the arms of your boyfriend on a night they told you was yours.
...and an hour later, my boyfriend convinced me to swallow whatever lump was in my throat,
and carry on with my night.

Because my best friend let go of my hand.

Before Class On A Thursday

I have never had a guy love me so much.
I have never trusted a guy with completely everything.
THIS is what it feels like when someone truly loves you.
I am so in love with this boy.

Life is good.
Birthday just passed, had a great birthday!
Celebration isn't over.
SANTA MONICAAAA -Apr 22/23 :D
With my best friend, her boy,
And my Marlon Leano<3
I'm excited, I wanna have so much fun.
I need a vacation.
I'm so tired of work!
Ah, I need to shower for school now :)

Just A Quick Blurb

I'm laying in my bed.
I should take a small, ten minute nap before Marlo comes here.
He's been amazing.
We're going to go get food before I go to work.
My eyes are so dry/blah. They've been making me sleepy.
Or at least feel sleepy.
I'll ask him to put eye drops in.
I think I want panda express, that's probably what I'll get.
Or Sarku Japan..hmmm..I'll see.
I want that apartment with Kassie.
All kinds of homo--> I want to come home to her!
After a long, hard day, I just want to sit on a couch and just vent to her.
Or have her vent to me.
Life's already busy as it is, and its cutting time spent with her.
Among other people as well, but this is kassie we're talking about.
I want that apartment, I want it.
It'll come.



...
I'm sleepy :/

Off To Sleep Is Where I Wake Up

Off of work.
Life at home is nothing new.
Tomorrow, I'm cashing my check and running errands that I'm sure I have.
I just can't think of them right now.
I think I might finish up my spanish lessons, or at least do a couple.
Then go to sleep.

Today... was.

Quick Thought Before The Shower Devours Me Whole

I have never in my life had this before...
Feeling for someone who feels even more for me.

I don't know time frames for adult relationships at all...
So i'll just go by my time frame and see how things take course.

I want that apartment with kassandra michelle latham already.
I want it now...
Ah, these next few months...