Just A Quick Ramble One Song Can Cause

Soo its been quite a new turn for me.
A year &two months, its about freakin time I'd say.
I failed my Philo class, boooo.
I didn't like that class or teacher anyway.
B in Stats, thats whats up :) A in tennis.
B in American History woo.
I'm really excited about that B in stats.
I'm listening to "You'll Think Of Me" by Keith Urban.
Brings back a lot of memories.
Its crazy to think that, in life, I went through half the songs that I've listened to,
&I never thought I would.
I never thought I'd be cheated on by someone I love &left for another girl.
I never thought I'd have to face them together for 5 months,seeing them everyday.
Seeing her hold the guy that occupied two years of my life,
seeing her hold the guy that was supposed to be my only love.
&if someone were to warn me, tell me, that this were about to happen to me.
I'd probably be scared out of my mind.
How I got through it, I'm not sure.
I guess I kept my head up no matter how much I just wanted to hit the floor.
I kept walking &faced every single flame of that fire.
I was scared. I was hurt. I was lost, didn't know what to do.
I was winging it every single one of those damned days.
What doesn't kill me, only makes me stronger.
And I tell myself, if I can make it through something like that.
I can make it through much more than my mind lets me believe.
I look back now, it doesn't even phase me.
Memories no longer reach me enough to make me feel anything.
Mike was right, he said a year from now it wouldnt matter to me.
It doesn't matter to me.
Its amazing to think how much something can mean to you.
Something could mean absolutely everything to you.
You'd give up anything for it.
But in time, that very same thing could mean as simple as nothing to you.
Its funny how things work out.
All I can say is, look at me now.
oh if only that broken hearted little girl knew how she'd be like now...
She wouldn't believe it.
Cause I still don't :)